if my life were a movie, i'd fall asleep or i'd walk out

yesterday had some interesting ups and some really interesting downs.
 
UPs: got to talk with my bro for a while on the phone; got a very, very nice compliment from a classmate, although they probably didn't even realize it; started watching Six Feet Under season 2; talked to my mom who is coming out today to drop off my sis for a week; and had a jones.
 
DOWNs: got a very, very nice compliment from a classmate, although they probably didn't even realize it; cried like a baby at the end of the second episode of Six Feet; woke up with the worst back pain imaginable; realized how disgusting i look; had to freaking deep clean the house last night because "its polite"; had an interesting convo with mike, and am still trying to figure out what i did wrong; and read an interesting post from matt, and am still trying to figure out what went wrong.
 
so i wake up this morning and guess what? you know that 20 pounds i would loooove to just go away??? well its still there. and you know my favoritist black jacket that i've had for years and that i can't find??? well its still gone. then my back still hurts, won't be able to do the 2 o'clock study group because my mom is coming at that time. probably won't be doing the 4:30 study group because i'm sure mike has cancelled it. and probably won't want to go to class tonight. and let me tell you how hungry i am right now. how do people just forget to have dinner? why thank you for asking, because i did last night. i can't even imagine coming home and not eating anything, but as hard as i try, i can't recall ever snagging a bite, except for the jones i had from the store at about midnight. and of course i got no time before work today to do eat. hence we have come full circle to the fact that i am hungry. so, i'd say, all in all, yesterday and the beginning of today have been crap.
 
whatever. the rest of the day i hope goes okay. i mean, it will be really good to see my mom. i get to work on hers and my bro's computer, so that will be fun. i might still get to study later today with the firm, but i won't hold my breath. and sometime maybe i'll eat something. food is good. food is too good. although i must say, i really don't eat that much food. curse you high metabolism freaks who can eat for days and still maintain your little figures!! i'm obviously bitter, but this really isn't a complaint considering i'm not pissing and moaning about it while i'm checking you all out (guys excluded. i just hate all of you.). and as far as school goes, i can already tell its gonna suck bad in the next few weeks. presentation, paper, exams. its going to be soooo overwhelming when its all due. oh well. i'll BS it all as usual, then cry about how i'm not going to get a good grade, then by some miracle, i'll get undeserved A's again. just another semester in the land of me.